A Sinner's Prayer

Father, I am tired of chasing this life in vain

Everything seems fleeting, leaving only the pain

Yet it is so hard to go against the grain

What the world offers, it’s so hard to abstain

Feelings of guilt, shame, and self-disdain

As if my life is still bonded in chain

In need of your grace, may your mercy reign

Open my eyes to where the lamb was slain

Revive my heart, please remind me again

That I am forever marked by your crimson stain

The consequences of sin can no longer detain

The promises of love and hope that still remain

The joy of knowing you, my heart cannot contain

The praises for the savior, these lips will not refrain

Even if my path ahead is filled with strain

I will press on forward for the prize to attain

Thank you, Lord, for my life you sustain

For I know, to live is Christ, to die is gain

... a redeemed

taking me back

cry in my heart

There's a cry in my heart

For your glory to fall

For your presence to fill up my senses

There's a yearning again

A thirst for discipline

A hunger for things that are deeper

Could you take me beyond

Could you carry me through

If I opened my heart

Could I go there with you

For what do I have

If I don't have you Jesus

What in this life

Could mean anymore

You are my rock

You are my glory

You are the lifter of my head

...starfield

humbled

Growing up as a PK, I tried to be a “good boy”. And since I rarely got in trouble, I didn’t quite understand why I am a sinner. But God broke me and humbled me. And I had to learn the hard way that I am indeed a sinner just like everyone else. While I was going through the “humbling” process, I read this passage and it has stuck with me since:

 “Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst.”  - 1 Timothy 1:15

synch

I am tired of second guessing
Not understanding
Not knowing
Desires with guilt
Convictions without action
Misaligned hope
Out of sync heart

Help me
to see it like You made it
hear it like You said it
know it like You meant it

To let go of what's fleeting
To hold on to what matters

To sync up once again
With the way your heart beats
To realign myself to your will

So that I may desire what pleases you
And do what you want me to